Wednesday, July 26, 2017

6 Years 6 Months and 26 Days into the Self Realization Journey---The Purpose

It has never been this clear before, the realization struck me on July 26, 2017, almost one and a half years to go: my sole purpose of finishing my three-year study here in AFDA is to complete that Starseeker movie.

Until this is achieved, everything will be fine.

I am totally focused.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Friday, July 21, 2017

6 Years 6 Months and 21 days into the Self Realization Journey---Chester's death

Fucking parasite.

I have no idea how I would express my condolences to Chester Bennington's death.

It all came very sudden.

It was unbelievable. Yes, truly unbelievable. "Unbelievable" is right now the only word I could use to do it. A month ago he was performing One More Light on stage and now he's dead.

If I was his close relative I would be absolutely devastated by disbelief.

Yes, disbelief. It is not like any other kind of death where... people have a reason to die, him, he has no reason to die. Just like my symptom, when it happens, its a disbelief.

I guess its a disbelief for all his fans around the world right now.

He died on 9am July 20, 2017. He hanged himself. Unbelievable. Just imagine that scene. It was a Thursday, it was yesterday, while I was practicing for my driver's license. I guess in less than 20 hours ago.

Growing with Linkin Park's song. It was all too sudden. Linkin Park is Linkin Park because of Chester's scream. Without it, I wonder how they would go from here.

I said "I am your guardian angel" to Melissa today.

Monday, July 17, 2017

6 Years 6 Months and 17 Days into the Self Realization Journey---I am happy

I was so happy today that Melissa said to me "You are important" out of nowhere.

The way she said it makes me feel like she's my girlfriend. Even thou she wasn't.

Yes, I m important.... You should have this confidence in you, Starseeker!

And Wesley said I am of those people who create values for others! That is so awesome.

I got two essential praises in one day!!

Well, Melissa's wish already made my day. 😊

Saturday, July 15, 2017

6 Years 6 Months and 15 Days into the Self Realization Journey--Film gathering

Yis and Wesley are now my best friends in AFDA.

Again, its the same everywhere, me and two best friends, 3, is a good number, 3 in New Zealand, 3 in China, now 3 in South Africa again.

I'm grateful for that.

The film gathering is good. A hysterically funny group turnout.

Jeandre read my plot overview which is awesome. He can't describe anything more than "epic".

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

The Making Of the Dog Head

Had a very productive time today at school with Cure making the dog head together.

A sense of accomplishment. Although she did most of the work. Still just what I needed right now.

I'm happy.

Friday, July 7, 2017

6 Years 6 Months and 7 Days into the Self Realization Journey---Pasta

Today's pasta is the best pasta I ve ever cooked.

Every ingredient performs perfectly well with each other.

Saturday, July 1, 2017