Saturday, June 24, 2017

6 Years 5 Months and 24 Days into the Self-Realization Journey

So I got 15 birthday wishes this year, I am so happy, thats a lot more than last year, and the year before.

In fact, this is the single highest ever since 4 or 5 years ago. I mean since 2012.

To conclude, I had a wonderful birthday this year, because of all those people, nothing fancy, just hugs and words, that makes me feel special.

Will the Journey stop by the age of 30?

Monday, June 12, 2017

Guilty - 6 years 5 months and 12 days into the Self Realization Journey

I suddenly feel guilty.

I did something bad 2 years ago. Now I suddenly realized it was really bad. After this terms project and 13 Reasons Why which are all to do with sexual harassment.

It was before I came to South Africa.

I sexually harassed a girl at the end of 2015 on a bus. And I have never mentioned this to anyone.

I said "Your legs are very sexy."

I didnt do anything physically to her. Just the words.

Does this account as sexual harassment? I think it does, according to my research.

I feel so scared. I may go to jail. Like those rapists. What if that girl killed herself?! Like in the 13 Reasons Why.

Cause i would never know what happened with her afterwards.

God, why do i feel this way after two years since the incident occurred?

Guess i was feeling high at that moment and wanted to masturbate at home. So speaking those things to a female makes me horny.

God...

Friday, June 9, 2017

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Melissa's hug

Damn, i should ve said "i love you." right after i hugged her. then everybody in the class would be like "whoooa." It would be awkward for a moment, then I would say "its spiritual love man."

Then everybody would laugh.

But i didn't. damn it.

Melissa might like it.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Melissa's class

I enjoy Melissa's class, she is my favoritest teacher in AFDA.

Just like I did when I was in middle school.