I can't sleep right now, it is 10:33 pm here in South Africa. I am laying in my bed can't sleep.
I felt this urge to write whatever is in my head right now.
The words of Sadhguru still resonates in my head, he said "the awakening is the most important event in one's life, whatever things you do and whatever achievement you have accomplished in this life, they are nothing compared to the magnitude of the spiritual awakening, and it must happen to every human being, for it must be the life time goal of everyone, otherwise one's life will be a waste."
I am 29 years old now, hitting the 30 mark is of utter importance to me. I don't know what to do right now, I can't sleep, his words just keeps me awake, can I talk to someone? Sundance, perhaps? or Sandy? I don't know. But there is just this urge to.... I don't know what.... just this urge in my heart that won't let me rest.
I wish I could achieve enlightenment just right now!!
I wish I could have a true friend right now, and just be so kind to her, and love her so fully.
This feeling I have right now, it may be good in nature.
Am I frustrated at this very moment? That awakening has not happened yet? But Sadhguru's words are so fascinating, he said it "must happen to every human being"!! "One's life would be a waste if it didn't happen."
I have very mixed emotion right now. But maybe it's utter joy!!!