Monday, October 9, 2017

A dream about Yolanda

I had a dream two nights ago. It was about Yolanda.

I felt so different when I saw her. But I felt good too. I miss her.

Today is the new term. The last term before I go back to China.

Damn, I should have said that New Zealand thing.

Its the awkward beginning again. In school, I actually don't truly have any friends. My interaction with any of them is so awkward, I'm tired of these.

Thursday, October 5, 2017

6 Years, 9 Months and 5 Days into the Self Realization Journey - Parents photo

I got the most liked post on Facebook today.

It is a photo of my parents taken recently. I knew it would pop up everyone because I think it was by far the best photo portraying my parents. They smiled very naturally.

I got 18 likes. The last time I got this many likes was in Russia. That "first date".

I m still boring. No one really likes my activities. I romanticize over Ewa. I wish I could meet her in my life.

Saturday, September 16, 2017

To the end of the academic year

The process has truly accelerated. With "Caught By The End of the Moment", these two projects, my term project and Melissa's film project, until the completion of the two, I'll be dam!!

These two projects may be essential for my journey of enlightenment next year.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Ordinary life

I would go to school regularly, doesn't matter even in my holiday, feels no utter difference, i do small bits and pieces, trying to fill my day, even when I at home, its still boring thou, so no difference.

I dont complete magnificent stuff, just small ones, i feel fine going to school folding paper cranes.

Even if there is no one doing this with me.

I like my life.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

I told my mom that I was gonna be a director and that's not a joke.

6 Years 8 Months and 10 Days into the Self Realization Journey---I am going on.

Enough is enough! I am Suning Starseeker goddamn it!

From this point on, I will never give in, give in, give in, anymore....

I am gonna going in, and don't stop and never look back..... these trivial things... they are not gonna hunt me down anymore!

This film decides that.

I am so powerful and I am gonna go on------- aaaaaaaa!!!!!

Saturday, September 9, 2017