Tuesday, April 24, 2018

I felt really close to Nicole today

I talked to her about very emotional stuff. Like loneliness and stuff.

I know she has a girlfriend. But I cant help fantasizing about what could ve happened if she did not have one.

It is easy for me to talk to a girl like that. A girl that is enthusiastic and passionate about conversations. Which she is. She is passionate, compassionate and interesting, and ambitious.

While Erin is sweet and innocent and dont know.... if only she can be more enthusiastic...

I just cant figure out what excites her.

I think 2018 is gonna end with i figuring out the relationship with these two girls.

Monday, April 23, 2018

Nolwazi is excited

Nolwazi is exceptionally happy today. After hearing about the progress of our film.

I just hope I didn't raise her expectations.

Sunday, April 22, 2018

She is the Girl----7 Years 3 Months and 22 Days into the Journey

I came to a conclusion today that Erin is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen.

Erin said I was energetic

I suddenly recalled Erin said I was energetic.

So I still didn't lose that...

Am I still Suning Starseeker?


Saturday, April 21, 2018

I masturbated today

I havent masturbated ever since I saw Erin two weeks ago.

I thought I could break the record.

It is still a sort of accomplishment. I thought I could last longer.

Friday, April 20, 2018

I ve been praised today

I have been praised today for our film.

The teachers complimented on the First Cut viewing.

Why do I not feel happy at the end of the day?

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

I don't care how many days have passed

Erin is the girl I like.

I really like her. We had a nice conversation on Tuesday. At the News Cafe.

The only thing that worries me is that she talks about music and movies that I haven't heard of and vice versa.

But the good thing is that we have the potential to connect emotionally.

I keep thinking about her smile all the time.

Maybe I should text her tomorrow.

Yesterday I woke up so scared. I guess I was worried only about myself. Cause why would I link myself to the fact that she has Type 1 Diabetes.

I don't want to see her suffer. It's kinda sad, she now has a lot of things she can't eat.

But I will be there for her. I want to stay with her for the rest of my life.

My film is going well. I just hope not to see bad surprises during the first cut viewing on Friday.

I told Yonelisa and Kim about how I felt about Erin today. I saw someone on her FB calling her "a beautiful human being".

That's precisely what I would describe her. Like what I did on the First Day.

A Beautiful Girl.